Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Flexibility or Fear?

For some reason I have become so apprehensive about limiting myself. I am scared of making decisions that will box me in. I have become scared of putting anything in a box. Especially myself. Especially now. So much is unknown...so much I want...to limit might mean to miss out on something that gets left out of that box. But at the same time, I want to find my place. Even if that place limits me... but where is that place? How do I find it? How do I choose? So many directions I could go.. so many things I could do. What do I want?

I have faith, and I want my goals to be faith-full, but the fear is crippling. It leaves me with so many questions left unanswered. So many thoughts that won't form into words that could form into questions that could obtain answers.

That is what I feel like I am this year. An abundant mass of thoughts all tangled up.. a lot of words that don't do the job.. don't express the bundle of thoughts...

3 comments:

Cantora said...

Hey, sweetie.
I feel the same way... but on a smaller scale, probably. So many questions... decisions... which is the best? What is the answer?

You're not alone.

Praying for you,
<3 Stephanie

P.S. I don't use my blogs anymore... I'm a xanga kid: www.xanga.com/cantora87

Jenna said...

Thanks Stephanie! You are so sweet! Thank you for always encouraging me and praying for me! I love you!

Cantora said...

I love you too, Jenna!
When are you coming back to Huntsville? Our girls' retreat is March 10-11.
~Stephanie