Sunday, September 17, 2006

This is me feeling a bit negative...

So I sat down here at my computer, and I started typing this blog. And I was just going at it... being completely cynical and blunt, and I was ready to just rant about all the frustrations and questions and uncertainties, and insecurties, and fears, and...... then I stopped. And I am listening to this song on repeat... and it basically expresses my thoughts.

And I like these words better. Because they say what I feel, but honestly, they don't reveal too much. You see, I am a pretty easy to read individual. I am told this quite often. I get it now, so I am easy to read. However, I don't always want to be read. Sometimes I'd rather people not know (or not think they know) what I am thinking or feeling or meaning. Assumptions suck. You know why. Because it is in assumptions that communication is lost, and when communication is lost, connections are broken, and when there is not connection, things get fuzzy, and the message is no longer clear, and then the original thought or intention gets lost in the translation....

I could ramble on some more, but what's the point. Here are the song lyrics; this is how I feel. And I am listening to this Switchfoot song for the 9th time right now...

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough