Tuesday, May 15, 2012

i wish....

I wish that I took the opportunity to read more.
Not just when I'm in the middle of an incredible series that I can't put down...
I wish I would initiate the reading more.
I bet I would find myself carrying books around all the time (and actually reading them) if I would just open them and take the time to take the plunge.

I wish that I took the time to write more.
Honestly, I believe I am supposed to.
My lack of follow-through here seems a lot like disobedience to me these days...
I wish that I would be brave enough to stop avoiding the blank page.
I wish that I would just jump in and let the words flow.
I need to.
I want to.
I should.
Will I?

I wish I didn't miss things.
You know, the things that you just let pass you by because you just aren't being present.
I want to be fully alive in every moment.
I want my eyes to be clear, my vision broad and sharp...
I want to breathe in deeply and feel the power and gentleness of the air that fuels my lungs...
I wish I didn't miss what's in front of me because I won't stop looking back.
I wish I didn't get so distracted.

So then, wake up!

Why bother with wishing... all of these things are as they are by my choosing.
Perhaps it is time I stop choosing so poorly.

10 comments:

Joseph Mcdaniel said...

very nicely put! I will follow and i hope that instead of wishing to write more you actually will write more!

Heather Christian said...

I share many of your thoughts here! Enjoyed reading!

Greyson's Nook said...

It seems like it's the same for everyone. We always seem to be so wrapped up in our busy lives that we find it hard to enjoy reading a couple of pages...

You write beautifully!

Marilen said...

Those things are simple things, so don't wish it, do it (:

Mar de Luna Duarte said...

WoW when you wrote "I wish that I would be brave enough to stop avoiding the blank page." and "I wish that I would just jump in and let the words flow." It just, wow, I totally understand how it feels like! but don't be to hard on yourself wishing is a nice first step. You have to wish it so hard that you'll find the courage to take action! and while you in the middle of the action and words are not flowing as fast as you wanted, then remember the power of your wish! and keep going!!!
I'll read you from now on!!!

ElleJ said...

I "rediscovered" my own blog tonight after 8 months without any entries. I see that you too have not been writing. Hope all is well and that you return to blogging soon. I find it helpful and it gives me hope. I am also wanting the things you speak of in this entry. I too need to wake up...

Doris said...

This is a great post Jenna, and I can so relate! I see it was over a year ago, and wondered why you haven't posted lately. I can relate to that too. I had stopped posting to my blog, completely dry of anything to say, although I had much to say. I think you know what I'm talking about.

I recycled some older posts to facebook, but felt like that was cheating lol.

Then a few days ago, a new post,finally. Now feeling the inspiration to do more. So hopefully you will get back to posting on this blog. Perhaps you started a new one?

Funny how I stumbled onto your blog, while on mine. I felt compelled to click the "next blog" button. Happened upon it just like that....but really, I don't believe anything happens by accident, but by divine appointments.

My blog is www.dorisswift.blogspot.com "Subject to Change~Life As We Know It" if you want to check it out.

Love In Christ,
Doris

Jackofallhobbies said...

I don't think it is about choosing well or choosing poorly. It is about choosing to do rather than choosing to think about or choosing to worry about.
No need to berate yourself, just do. No need to punish yourself, just do.
It sounds simple, and it is, if you don't choose to think. Choose to do.
Choose one word written over a hundred thought about.
I may not be really telling you, and anybody else out there, something new. I just chose to put it down, rather than worry if I should or not.

Stupidosaur said...

Just choose to write and write away! :)

candace penn said...

it has been a year! we are waiting.....