Tuesday, May 19, 2009

so much to say....

... but so little time!

It is officially summertime at Mayfair.
Summer is always so exciting, but oh so busy. Especially this first week. So all these things I'd like to write about are just going to have to wait. And you know me, the longer I wait, the less likely it is that I will actually write about what I want to write about. 

Sigh....

Okay, that's enough of a break for now. Gotta go!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

they always get you on the s&h....

So I have been making plans and arrangements to redecorate my office.

It is getting painted tomorrow. 

A new shelving unit is being made by the amazing Mr. Mark at church. 

I bought some cool antique chairs. 

The process will probably take a month or so, but I am not letting that discourage me. 

(When everything is finally finished, I will post before & after pictures.)

I still need to buy a couple of lamps, the wall shelving, artwork/pictures for the wall, and a desk.

Oh the desk.....
Let me just tell you about this desk. For a couple of weeks, I have been browsing the internet for the perfect white desk for my office. I want simple. I want clean lines. I want white. I want modern. I want IKEA. And I had found the perfect desk. 

So I thought.


This desk. This is a picture that I found online. The better picture is here. (click on the "function & style" tab, select the top right picture.)  And the price is right too! Just $130. Not too bad... I mean... comparatively speaking.

This morning I got the go-ahead to order the desk. I spent an hour trying to decide if it really was the desk that I wanted to order. I decided it was. I get on IKEA.com, put it in my cart, and then proceed to checkout. I fill in my billing & shipping information, make sure everything is correct, and then I click continue.

And then I see it. 

The shipping & handling cost.

Remember how I said the desk was $130?    Well, lets just say my total AFTER s&h was going to be $254.60. 

Yes. Almost DOUBLE the amount! $5.40 less than double, to be exact. 

WHAT THE HECK?!?! After all that work.... 

Back to the drawing board. This really might take all summer...






Tuesday, May 05, 2009

who knew...

...that going to a movie by myself really could be fun?!?!

(this is an example of the type person I pictured alone in movies... ha)

I mean, I've had a few of my friends tell me that they liked to do that every once in a while, but honestly, I always thought they were either 1) crazy or 2) extreme loners. And I never thought that I would find myself at a place where I could do it. Did I think I was too cool to go to a movie by myself? Absolutely not! Was I just scared? Definitely yes. Terrified? I wouldn't say terrified, but anxious to the point that I avoided it for 24 years...

Anyways, I officially overcame this fear tonight, and as you can tell, I'm a little excited about that! Especially because it was fun! And 17 Again was definitely a good movie choice. Like I said before, who knew?!?

I hope everyone else is having a delightful week!

Monday, May 04, 2009

from the pen of Susan Isaacs...

In my last post I said that I would come back and explain some of the thoughts that are on my heart after finishing this book by Susan Isaacs, Angry Conversations With God. However, I also warned you that I saw this as a very intimidating task, and honestly, I just haven't been able to wrap my mind around everything enough to put it in blog post form yet. I hope to write something for you soon, but I might not. I suppose sometimes my deepest thoughts aren't meant to be shared. Who knows. Regardless, I do want to leave you with something about this book, so I figure, why not let Mrs. Isaacs do the talking? Here is a small portion of her God story from chapter 16 of the book:

"If God wants to burn up everything useless in my life, amen to that. But I want to know whether or not this sorrow has an end. Do these longings in my heart for love and purpose mean anything? I say yes. Is my need for God just misplaced longing that has no place to be satisfied? I say no. The body thirsts because it needs water and water exists. The soul longs for purpose because it needs it, and because it exists. And I wouldn't long for God if he didn't exist. I am taking this personally because I am personal. And I don't think that an impersonal God could create humans to be personal. So I'm taking this personally from a personal God.
A sixteenth-century monk wrote a treatise called Dark Night of the Soul. When we first know God, he lavishes us with blessings and signs of his love, the way you do with your children when they're small. But God wants us to grow up. So he removes his blessings. The sense of his presence. And even signs of love. Because he wants us to trust when we can't see, to believe we're loved even if we can't feel it, to walk by faith and not by sight. And maybe he wants me to love him for himself, not for what I can get out of him.
Well, if that's where I am, then okay. I can be here. I'm in my own Dark Night of the Soul. And I'm just waiting for my sun to come up."

I don't really have much to add to that right now. I will say this, "maybe he wants me to love him for himself, not for what I can get out of him." Something to think about...

Friday, May 01, 2009

lilies and snarky memoirs...

You all may remember a certain blog post I wrote at the beginning of this month about me needing a break. I talked about how I had pretty much felt abandoned and disconnected from God. I also talked about some of the ways He revealed His truth to me. Really, I didn't go into that many details, but I think you all understood what I was saying. Let me just tell you, He didn't stop there. 

About a week ago, I found myself in Barnes & Nobles, just wandering around with a gift card in my pocket. I'd gotten the gift card for my birthday, but hadn't had a chance to spend it yet. (I had been too busy getting ready for the Girls Retreat.) Well on this particular morning, I had alloted myself plenty of time to wander about the bookstore in search for the perfect purchase. As usual, I ended up with quite a stack, but two particular books really seemed to stand out to me. These two:
At this very moment it is late, and I am tired, but I will be coming back to tell you about these books. I am not very far into the 2nd one yet, but I can tell it is going to be seemingly odd, yet complimentary companion to the 1st book that I did, in fact, finish about 15 minutes ago. I don't even want to attempt to express my thoughts at this hour because they are just too big and deep. 

I will be out of town for part of the weekend, but you can expect my next post by Monday. I'll go ahead and tell you, there is no way that I am going to be able to express everything that is going through my mind right now, and really, the thought of trying to is very intimidating. But I will try... because this stuff is just too good not to...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

the beauty of an open heart...

This is the 3 of us in China where they are currently living.

They have been two of my best friends for years now... We met as Freshman at Faulkner University, and have been friends ever since. Our journey together has been crazy! The ins and outs of our friendship are definitely filled with ups and downs, but when I look back over the past 6 years, I see God's mighty hand working out some beautiful things!

I really believe that God brought us together, along with another dear friend, Laurel, because He knew that over the course of the next several years, He was going to be able to use us, with our specific personalities & talents & passions, in each other's lives.

I am so thankful for these friendships, and the ways I see God using these girls.

For example, take Brittany. 
This is a picture of the two of us in Malawi, Africa in the summer of 2006. The summer before this, Brittany went on her first mission trip. She went with Landmark to this orphanage in Malawi, and the work of the Lord overseas opened her heart to missions. For the past 2 years, she and her husband, Will (also a best friend from the college years). have lived in China, teaching English in a university there, and serving an ever greater purpose for God. 

She and Will are going to be moving back to the States in July. Will wants to go into youth/worship ministry, so they have been keeping their eyes open for the next door of opportunity that the Lord will open for them.
(Note: Know of any youth/worship minister positions open? I am trying to find them work near me. haha!)

And then there is Carie. 
This picture is from that same trip in 2006. Carie may have the most compassionate heart of anyone I have ever met. Her heart belongs to children in need. Children who need food, shelter, and clothes, but more than any of that, they need to be introduced to the One who loves them so much that He died for them. Once Carie started going overseas to serve, she realized that she was just not satisfied staying here and being comfortable at home. She felt the call to go. And boy has she gone! She's been on short-term trips to Honduras, Panama, and Malawi. She then spent about 6 months in India before moving to China for a year to be a part of the work that Will & Brittany are involved in. 

Now that her year in China is up, she is preparing for her next leap of faith. That leap happens to have her jumping back to India, back to the needs of the children who stole her heart the first time she was there. This time, she will not be serving as a part of a work that has already been established, but beginning a new work in a new place. She, along with a family she grew close to the first time she was there, are beginning a new journey in which God is leading them to a new city to start another home for orphans and homeless children. I am so excited about all that God can do through them and their open hearts and open hands. 

I would love to tell you more about the work Carie plans to do, but why don't you hear it from her? She has recently started a blog to keep family and friends updated as things progress. Check it out.

Today I ask you to pray for these girls and their families as they prepare to transition into and be engaged in the new work He has for them.





Monday, April 27, 2009

i got tagged....

... to play this random little blogging game by Katie, and it really isn't difficult, so here goes nothing...

All you have to do is:
1. Take a pic of yourself right now.
2. No primping or preparing.
3. Just snap a picture.
4. Load the picture onto your blog.
5. Tag some people to play along.


I tag: Jessica, Annie, Ashley, & Lana.

I just noticed something-- check out Katie's picture. It kind of looks like we are both on the same couch! We're not. I think that is funny. So I figured I would share my observation with whoever reads this post.

By the way, I am enjoying the most wonderful Monday ever with my dear friend, Amelia, who is in town visiting me! It has been absolutely wonderful, and we are about to go watch the season finale of Chuck at our friend Jason's apartment! (Jason Helton- you and your tivo are my heros. Yes, this is a shout out for you. And no, I won't write about your messy apartment. haha)


Sunday, April 26, 2009

i really have just started blogging about some of the most random things...

Any of you that know me well enough to know my TV preferences knows that tomorrow night is a big night in television for me. 
My favorite show, Chuck, is wrapping up Season 2 with its finale, and man is it going to be a good one!!! 
I seriously cannot wait to see what happens! 
And then I can't wait till Season 2 comes out on DVD! 
And then I can't wait for Season 3 to start up!!! 
(PLEASE let there be a Season 3, NBC!!!) 
Oh how I love Chuck Bartowski.... sigh...

p.s. - I love Chuck more than I love Jim Halpert. 
Yes. It is true.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

real simple magazine, hear my plea...

Dear Real Simple magazine,

For Christmas, I asked for a subscription to my favorite magazine in the world. Your magazine. I love it. Every month, my mind is filled with the inspiring images that you select to educate me on the ways of simplicity. Every month I slowly flip through the beautiful pages, ink pen in hand, ready to makes notes in the margins-- reminders to myself that I need to take your advice or exclamations of this being my "dream kitchen" or that being the way I want my bookshelves to look...

When I select colors and fonts for my little postcards and newsletters, you are the inspiration for my designs. When dreaming up decor for my Girls Retreat, I so often referred to you. One day, when I am a bride, you will be my wedding guidebook. When I finally begin cooking, I will use your recipes. One day I will have a home of my own, and the things I have learned from you will fill the rooms of my house.

Can you tell that you inspire me? Here's the thing, Real Simple- I just can't do it myself yet. I still have so much to learn. And now I find myself in a small, cluttered, inefficiently organized office that needs to be painted. Help!! Are you out there? Can you tell me how to fix this on a tight budget? I need your wisdom to best utilize this space! Please?

Your dedicated subscriber,
Jenna




Tuesday, April 21, 2009

reasons why i miss college...

I am currently stretched out across my bed, surrounded by everything that was in my arms upon returning from the office. The sun has been shining through my window, as if it were making an effort to pull me away from the confines of my apartment, but I have turned my back to it. Right now, the invite almost feels like mockery. Come Jenna, you're alone with nothing to do this evening. Why don't you come outside and enjoy the fresh spring air-- alone. (The sun laughs.)

My mind quickly tried to explain my state of solitude to the sun. I'm only here alone because my roommate is gone tonight... and besides, I could use a day with nothing to do... the past couple of weeks have been crazy... and... I... I... I could do something if I wanted to. There's people I could call... or text... besides... solitude is good for a person.... .... so there! The taunting of the sun continues. It can tell it is winning. Stupid sunshine.

And that leads me to this list of reasons why I miss college.

#1. In college, most of my friends could be found within a 1/4 mile radius of my door. Companionship - check. Done and done. Sunshiny day? Guaranteed I would come across someone else that wanted to go to Shakespeare Park to lay around and read, take goofy pictures, and play bocce ball. It was easy to find someone to venture downtown with. We'd go, park the car, walk around, explore random old church buildings, and eat at the most hole-in-the-wall place we could find. Wanna smoothie? We'd pile up in the car and make our way across the street to the Coffee Bean. Best. Smoothies. Ever. Favorite TV show on? You'd never watch it alone. Every Thursday night a large crowd gathered in our apt to watch the Office. And that doesn't even begin to describe it... Sigh... never again will I ever live so close to such a large percentage of my facebook friends... 

Yep. That pretty much sums it up. Oh the days of a social life, how I miss thee... 

Monday, April 20, 2009

feelin' the love...

My friend and follow blogger, Katie, gave me the Kreativ Blogger Award! I was pretty excited! Here are the award rules: List 7 things that you love, and then pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you love! Be sure to tag them and let them know that they have won. You can copy the picture of the award and paste it on your sideboard letting the whole world know...you are Kreativ!
1. I love God.
2. I love my family. 
3. I love all of my friends. 
(I really have been blessed with some amazing friends!)
4. I love my MYM family.
5. I love good conversation.
6. I love meaningful music.
7. I love moments where I am free of responsibility. 

Let's see... now I am going to tag...
Annie (I know Katie tagged you too, but this is me seconding that.)

Thanks for the award, Katie!! Love ya!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

confessions of a 24 year old moleskine addict...

Yes. 
It is true.
I am addicted to something called the Moleskine.

I started using the Moleskine in May of 2005 when a friend convinced me to purchase one while we were in Washington, D.C.  We were in this quaint little bookshop... I knew all the cool kids were using them... It didn't take much to convince me that I needed one. The Moleskine is legendary, after all. I mean, think of the big names that were users... Hemingway... Picasso... Chatwin... David the Psalmist... (okay, probably not David the Psalmist, but if they had existed he totally would have had one!). I was told a Moleskine would change my life.

It did.

Now here I am, almost 4 years and 7 Moleskines later (would have been 8 if I hadn't been stupid my senior year in college and purchased a random navy, soft leather-bound journal instead). It takes me about 6 months to go through one journal. One day, I will have quite a library... 

There are many different styles of Moleskine out there. I am very particular about mine. I refuse to veer away from the traditional black, hardcover, ruled notebook. I want my collection to be uniform (I learned my lesson with that crazy navy journal...). Yes, I realize that is a bit obsessive-compulsive, but like I said, it is an addiction.

Now on a more serious note (because yes, this post does have a point), I really do love my Moleskine journals. Not only because I love the simple, classy, black leather cover, but because of all that fills them. 

I just spent some time flipping through my journals from the past year & a half. It is absolutely incredible to see some of the blatantly obvious ways God was at work in my life. In these journals, I can look back and see, in my own handwriting, a record of events & prayers & conversations & wishes & pleas & frustrations & answers & choices & movement....  I am able to make connections that I never would have noticed without these records. 

The more I think about it, these journals are probably my most cherished possessions...

Maybe one day I will be able to take this record of my story and turn it into something to publish and share with others. I would say that is a dream of mine...

Or maybe these journals aren't meant to be shared like that... maybe the stories they contain are most effectively shared in the context of relationships...

Regardless of how they may be used in the future, for now I will continue to use them as a record from the past to help me live in the present as I strive to live for eternity. 


(Note: Any other Moleskine users want to go in together and buy in bulk? These things are getting a little pricy! haha)


Monday, April 13, 2009

a lovely birthday, indeed...


Well, I got the weekend at home that I wanted! 
I loved getting to spend time with my family! We celebrated my birthday together with some yummy food (chicken w/plum chipotle sauce, asparagus, sweet potato fries, & broccoli salad-- a fav meal of mine), fun game time (Pass the Pigs anyone?), a couple movies, an amazing cookout at Mamaw's (complete with an egg hunt & volleyball), and an incredible Easter Sunday afternoon picnic and walk in the park. Seriously, it doesn't get much better than that!

And today was such a lovely day.
Sometimes I take these new friendships I have for granted. I spend some much time longing for what I once had, that I forget to cherish the gifts that God's put right in front of me. Well over and over again today, I was reminded of those dear gifts... I am blessed with so much. I work with people that genuinely care about me. I live with a friend who I appreciate and love more and more each day. I have some incredible teenagers in my life that I love, and they love me, and together we are striving for His Kingdom, and I get to show them things that have helped me, and I get to watch them discover His power and love for them... And my family really isn't that far away. I've even got some family in town now, and I love getting to see my best friend cousin more often and play with her sweet baby girls.

So today, I say thank you.
And I smile knowing that He hears me.

pictured above: Dad, Mom, Kayla (baby sis), me, Karissa (middle sis), & Kyle (middle sis's bf.. not quite family, but we'll let him in our picture... :)
(I love my crazy family!!)

Friday, April 10, 2009

birthday present #2...

watch out youth groupers...

Cause I am armed and dangerous.
You kids like rolling my apartment door and stealing my tires...
Next time you feel so inspired to cover my car in post-it notes,
just remember...

I'll be waiting for you.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

birthday present #1...

check out my new ride!

Mom and Dad had it waiting for me in the basement when I got home tonight! I am back in Cleveland for my birthday/Easter weekend, and the sisters get here tomorrow, and could not be more excited! We've been looking forward to this weekend, when we would all get to be home together, since February. What can I say? We love each other. :)

I hope you all have a fabulous Easter weekend!

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update:
So because of this crazy weather we are supposed to have tomorrow, the sisters may not get to come. PLEASE pray that the storms will just go away so they can come home tomorrow. 

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

so guess what....

i am going to see these people in Nashville!!!! 
and i am SO excited!!!!

It is official.
The tickets have been purchased. 
(I think I may have been the very first person to buy the tickets.. I was on ticketmaster just waiting and refreshing the page until they went onsale. Yes. I am that excited.)
Whoo whooooo!!!! 

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

there's a first time for everything...

(this is the current background on my macbook)

I am less than a week away from turning 24. I've been thinking a lot about this past year, and I've realized that there have been quite a few "firsts" that have taken place. Because of this, I have decided to make a list of these "firsts", so I now present to you:

Twenty-three Firsts from my 23rd Year
1. Moved (alone) to a new city for a job
2. Moved into my very own apartment
3. Got my 1st Macbook
4. Had interns-- wasn't one!
5. Went on a canoe trip
(I'm not counting that time in 1st grade with the Girl Scouts...)
6. Experienced Christmas in July
7. Moved baby sister into her college dorm
8. Ate beignets at Cafe Du Monde in New Orleans
9. Hiking at Monte Sano
10. Tuesday nights at the BCM
11. Saw Wicked (the musical) in Atlanta
12. Mrs. Bobo's w/ the office ladies
(and became known around the office for my love of the apples...)
13. Got food poisoning
14. Played in the North Alabama Flag Football Tournament
15. Baked my 1st German Chocolate Cake
16. Had 2 carseats in my backseat
(and first time to routinely pick up babies from daycare)
17. First trip to Colorado/1st NCYM/1st attempt at skiing
18. Flew first class
(and for no additional cost- thanks Alisha! haha)
19. Visited the City of Children
20. Went camping
21. Experienced the City Museum in St. Louis
(This was, in fact, on my 1st Mystery Mission trip.)
22. Went on the Renewal retreat
23. Experienced my first year in youth ministry

Twenty-three was definitely a year of changes and growth.. then again, so was 22. And really, I imagine the same will be true for 24. So today, I look back and remember all the challenges, all the adventures, all the joys... Perhaps tomorrow I will dream up 24 things to do in my 24th year...



Friday, April 03, 2009

I've needed a break...

...and thankfully, I got one.

In case you couldn't tell by the tone of my most recent posts (and the lack of posting), I've had a rough couple of weeks. I guess I had just reached a breaking point. I had been putting way too much pressure on myself, and after a few disappointments and with several events that I find to be a little intimidating approaching, I just found myself utterly exhausted. 

And Satan didn't miss a beat. He came right in, whispering his words of deceit, leaving me tired, frustrated, filled with endless doubts & insecurities, and just generally downcast. I felt disconnected, and God was just not coming to my rescue how I wanted Him to.

Honestly, I felt a little abandoned. 

Why would God lead me to this place and then just leave me? I'd been trying so hard to pursue Him-- why wasn't He showing up?! What was I doing wrong?!? How was I supposed to show a bunch of teenagers who He is when I can hardly even feel Him myself? The questions and doubts and disconnection had me pretty worn out. I didn't want to go to work. I dreaded the planning. I dreaded the pressure. I expected the worst. And I was simply a little scared-- what did all of this mean?

Well, our God is a good One. He doesn't usually just show up in the ways we expect Him to, or even want Him to, but He is there. And He is good. And He has not abandoned me.

In these past two weeks, He has provided me with several people to speak His truths to me. I am so thankful for the many people He put in my path to encourage me and pick me up and point me back in His direction of truth... my roommate, some of my co-ministers, my friends in the young pro group, my family, and the incredible women I was able to slip away and go on a retreat of renewal with...  I am thankful the words He spoke through them. He said:

"You have not been abandoned." 
"You are not alone-- I've been there too."
"You put too much pressure on yourself."
"You do belong here."
"You have been sent."
"I am at work in you."
"I am good, even when you don't feel good."
"I am there, even when you don't feel Me."
"Be still- cease strivings- know I am God."
"I am glorified when you just keep doing what you're supposed to do."
"Simply be faithful."

So yes, I may still be a little tired. And yes, maybe I'm still a little intimidated. And I'm still feeling kinda disconnected. But you know what? That's okay. Because He doesn't tell me that I will always feel good, and times of desolation are sure to come. But I can rest in His truth. I can rest in His peace. And I can be faithful. And sometimes, in times like these, that's all He wants me to do.


Saturday, March 28, 2009

today...

we flew kites.
and it was a glorious day.

(and now I am getting ready to watch BOLT with my Jr. High girls. Here's to a simply delightful weekend!)

((and yes, I still intend on telling you all about our mystery trip!))

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

today i'd like...

to fly a kite.

(I am also pretty homesick.)

Monday, March 23, 2009

today is an dreary sort of paradox...

This is kinda how I feel today...
tired and dreary and a little bit downcast.

But it is such a sunshiny day outside!

Boo on days like this...
I'm sure it will get better.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

going on a little trip...

And yes, it is a mystery.
What in the world am I talking about?
633 Kingdom Life Mystery Mission Trip

Yeah, I figure you are still confused. Let me back up. Matthew 6:33 tells us to seek first the Kingdom of God. This is the focus of our Spring Break mission trip this year. A small group of us will be leaving today to be ambassadors of the Kingdom to our world. Where are we going exactly? Well, that is the mystery part of it. We have planned this trip {mostly Cody planned; I helped} and no one other than a few select people really know any of the details. We gave each team member a detailed packing list, and that is all they really know. Oh, and they know we get back Wednesday night. 

I'll be back later this week and let you all know how it goes.

Until then, please be praying for us. Pray for GOD to move in us and use us in tremendous ways on this trip. I'm going to be honest, I hope this trip is life changing for everyone on it.  I am excited to see just how HE has decided to work.

"HE who calls you if faithful; HE will surely do it" (1 Thess. 5:24). 

I give HIM all the praise and glory, right now, for all the things HE is going to do.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

a favorite way to spend a saturday...

three girls
a sack lunch
a mountain
& GOD

This past Saturday, Ashley {my roommate}, Annie {my dear, visiting friend}, and I slipped away from the craziness of our lives to Monte Sano State Park in Huntsville. We packed our lunches, put on our tennis shoes, and grabbed our Bibles {and journals, and additional reading and study materials...}, ready for some much needed quiet time. We found my favorite spot, a rock ledge that is hidden away under a canopy of trees, and sat down to enjoy our view and our lunches. We chatted for a while, and then each grew quiet. We had no particular plan, though we had originally thought we would roam around a bit more, so we each settled into the silence and our spot on the rock.

I was surprised when I looked at my phone and saw that we had been there for nearly three hours. All of a sudden, a mighty wind seemed to roar around us, breaking our silence. It almost felt like GOD was giving us HIS approval or dismissing us or something. We stayed a while longer, reflecting on our individual experience on the rock, and then left to explore some more of the park {and find a restroom}.

I had been needing a day like this for a while.
In community, but in solitude, and in nature.
 I have decided that it is definitely a favorite way to spend a Saturday.


Saturday, March 07, 2009

a little bit of loveliness...

I just think this is precious. 
Where can I find these flowers and some cute antique tins?

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

a series of unplanned events...

... led to a series of choices.
Which required faith. 
And stepping out in that faith.
Taking action.
The result?
A beautiful scene of God at work.
And an open door for that work to continue.

Let me tell you the story of what I experienced this past Sunday morning. First let me back up. I went up to Murfreesboro on Saturday afternoon to visit Laurel and some other friends. The plan was to be there for the Coffeehouse Fundraiser that night, hang out, stay the night, and go to church with them the next morning before heading back to Huntsville. 

Saturday night we were thrilled by a huge, unexpected {though forecasted} surprise-- SNOW! As in true college student/fresh out of college student fashion {I know... it has been 2 years now. Not quite fresh.}, we ventured out for some snow sledding adventures at about 1:30am. When we got back, close to 3:30, we just weren't all that tired. Seriously, I could not fall asleep. So we had some deep, late-night real talk until nearly 5. Needless to say, we were moving a little slow as we got ready for church Sunday morning.

Bible class starts at 9:30, and at 9:35, we {Laurel, Jenny, & I} were walking out the front door into {approximately} 7 inches of snow. After clearing the snow off the windows and slowly backing out of the driveway, we were on our way. Except we stopped at Starbucks. And there was a line. And as we made our way towards the church, we realized that we were way too late to make an appearance in class, so we turned down a side street, found a Hardees, and pulled in. 
{Series of unplanned events}

As we drove up to the drive-thru, we noticed 2 homeless men standing outside. We pulled together some money as we got our food and then drove back around the building to help out these 2 men. However, they weren't outside anymore; they'd gone in. So we parked the car, grabbed our food, and headed inside.
{Series of choices}

When we walked in, we noticed that there were actually 4 of them, and we really didn't know what to do, so we grabbed a booth and sat down. I mean, we didn't really know for sure if they were even homeless. Doubts and fears kept us frozen in our seats. What if they aren't homeless? What if they get mad or offended if we approach them? What if they just see as some annoying, rich girls that want to get in a good deed for the day? How do we start this conversation? We sat there for about 10 minutes before any of us made a move. Finally, I stood up.... and walked right past them into the bathroom. {ha, pansy} I noticed that they didn't have any food, so I knew we had to do something. So when I walked out, after breathing a desperate prayer to GOD for assistance, I walked up to the guys, and just started talking to them.
{Stepping out in faith}

Laurel and Jenny were right behind me, and together, we sat and chatted with the men. We found out they had slept in a Salvation Army the night before, but they get kicked out in the mornings, so they were waiting here until the library would open at 1:00. At one point Jenny {taking another step in faith} asked the guys if they would want to go to church with us. They said yes. So we called our friend T, he came, we loaded up the 2 cars, and made our way to church.
{Taking action}

It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen in church. I turned to look down the pew at the people beside me... Jerry, John, Bill, & Charles sitting between me and my friends. We ended up spending about 4 hours with these men, hearing about their lives and their search for jobs, laughing together as we sat in the back of a Chinese buffet... We dropped them off at the library that afternoon, and as we drove away, I thought about just how much this afternoon must have meant to them.... and I realized just how much it meant to me. 

Thank you, LORD, for using me as a vessel... a gift of YOUR love and mercy to these men.

Interested in learning more about the crisis of homelessness in our country and how we, as the church, can be used by God to help, even in these "little" ways? Check out Under The Overpass , a book by Mike Yandoski. I just finished reading it, and it has really given me some good perspective.