Well, this was quite the eventful day!!! I got up really really early this morning, planning on leaving at the bright and early hour of 6am....well, it didn't happen quite like that....unfortuantely, we didn't leave till 9....and I was still completely exhausted...
So Karissa rides with me in my car...and I, of course have stuff piled sky high in my car, so that I can not see worth a flip. Yeah...I realized really soon, when almost side-swiping a car, that I kinda need to be extra careful when watching my blind spots!!...haha
Get to Faulkner, and finally get my room! Thrilled because I liked the spot that my room was in... my wonderful pal Miller came to help me get everything moved in....and he set up my computer for me...well, for the most part at least!!! It was several hours later that we were made aware of the REAL reason the internet wasn't working....good times...good times... :)
A combo of: helping the suitemates move in...unpacking my stuff....crazy tennis/baseball fun... my first experience at Moes (yes, the 3 of us ate for just 3 dollars...no joke!!)... dorm room shopping fun...oh, and how could I forget...the construction of my lamp!!! YAY!!!
Thought for the day:
The inner side of every cloud
Is bright and shining;
Therefore I turn my clouds about
And always wear them inside out,
To show the lining.
~Ellen Thornycroft Fowler Felkin~
Friday, August 06, 2004
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Today is the Big Day!!
Well, I am about to finish loading up the car...I am on my way back to school!!!! The moment I have been waiting for since....well...since I got in the car to come home for the summer.... but for some reason, I am a little hesitant. I KNOW!!!! What is wrong with me!?!?!?! It's crazy for sure....but it really does make since.
First of all, I am so excited about getting to be with my friends again, however, I am a little nervous about how things are going to go in some situations....I know it's going to be good, but that is just one MINOR concern on my mind right now....
Secondly, I am really going to miss being with my family---Yes Mom, take your hand, and gently lift your jaw up to it's normal position---It has been nice to be able to spend time with them, and they have really been my friends this summer, because I didn't have ANY in Cleveland. Love em for it too!!! (even though I often complained...)
Thirdly, and the reason I think I am most hesitant to leave, is Central. I love my church family so much!!! I have been a part of that family for a good 13 years...and now my family is facing some really hard times. We are in search for a pulpit minister AND a youth minister. I hate that I am not going to be there throughout this whole process, because I want to help. My prayers will be with Central....and the youth group...and all the adults...everyone...because I'm telling you, it's been a hard summer, and I can't imagine having to deal with all that for much longer. I pray that we will all encourage one another, because it is getting hard to avoid Satan's trap of discouragement...but together, we can do it!! Fellowship among Christian brethren...God's unique design...a way for us to build one another up...Let's follow the plan and help each other!!!
I'm also scared that once we get our new ministers, I won't have the same, close relationship that I have had with James and Scott. I won't be there...I won't have the chance for them to really know me...but this too I must not worry about...Faith....something that I have really had to learn to rely on this summer... God is in control, He knows what's best, and He's going to make it happen for me. And that's really all I need to know.
I pray that God will help me let go of all these things, and help me to have another fabulous year at Faulkner...and you know what, I know it will be! I have a Father, and I have the faith. I have a Savior, who gives me strength. I have Joy, because I have Jesus. And that will NEVER change!
Well then, I guess I had better get off this computer and get going.... : )
First of all, I am so excited about getting to be with my friends again, however, I am a little nervous about how things are going to go in some situations....I know it's going to be good, but that is just one MINOR concern on my mind right now....
Secondly, I am really going to miss being with my family---Yes Mom, take your hand, and gently lift your jaw up to it's normal position---It has been nice to be able to spend time with them, and they have really been my friends this summer, because I didn't have ANY in Cleveland. Love em for it too!!! (even though I often complained...)
Thirdly, and the reason I think I am most hesitant to leave, is Central. I love my church family so much!!! I have been a part of that family for a good 13 years...and now my family is facing some really hard times. We are in search for a pulpit minister AND a youth minister. I hate that I am not going to be there throughout this whole process, because I want to help. My prayers will be with Central....and the youth group...and all the adults...everyone...because I'm telling you, it's been a hard summer, and I can't imagine having to deal with all that for much longer. I pray that we will all encourage one another, because it is getting hard to avoid Satan's trap of discouragement...but together, we can do it!! Fellowship among Christian brethren...God's unique design...a way for us to build one another up...Let's follow the plan and help each other!!!
I'm also scared that once we get our new ministers, I won't have the same, close relationship that I have had with James and Scott. I won't be there...I won't have the chance for them to really know me...but this too I must not worry about...Faith....something that I have really had to learn to rely on this summer... God is in control, He knows what's best, and He's going to make it happen for me. And that's really all I need to know.
I pray that God will help me let go of all these things, and help me to have another fabulous year at Faulkner...and you know what, I know it will be! I have a Father, and I have the faith. I have a Savior, who gives me strength. I have Joy, because I have Jesus. And that will NEVER change!
Well then, I guess I had better get off this computer and get going.... : )
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
"Patience is a virtue"
....that's what my mom told me last night when I was getting ready to leave for a cookout. "It's a big storm out there Jenna, just wait it out..." I was already late, and I did not feel like being later. "Mom, it's just rain, it's not going to hurt me or anything?!?!" Well, my mom didn't agree. I sat there for a minute, and then I looked at her, with one of those expressions that say--"This is really stupid, can you please let me grow up?!?!?"
As usual, her response was, "Ask your father." So I turned, and looked at my dad...and just as I expected, he replied, "Go on, have fun, be careful.." Score, 10 points for the Dad!! He always is the voice of reason in these type situations...
So I get in the car.... and I don't get more than 5 streets down the road, and the rain starts falling harder...and faster...and the next thing I knew...huge chunks of ice begin beating down on me and my nice, new, not-so-clean vehicle. I couldn't see a thing!!! So I pulled over at the gas station....got out the cell, and called my mom....
I could SEE it in her voice....arms crossed, head shaking..."I told you so." With an exasperated sigh I replied, "I know..." She continued, "Now Jenna, what does the Bible say?? What is a virtue???" "Patience Mom... Patience is a virtue."
And that is my lesson for the day. Patience is a virtue. And it is a good thing to practice in EVERY aspect of my life. I mean, if I rush into something...before the storm of it all is over...well, I'm pretty much going to get stuck in all the HAIL!!!
(Ashley, I hope you enjoy the hidden meaning of this one!! ;)
As usual, her response was, "Ask your father." So I turned, and looked at my dad...and just as I expected, he replied, "Go on, have fun, be careful.." Score, 10 points for the Dad!! He always is the voice of reason in these type situations...
So I get in the car.... and I don't get more than 5 streets down the road, and the rain starts falling harder...and faster...and the next thing I knew...huge chunks of ice begin beating down on me and my nice, new, not-so-clean vehicle. I couldn't see a thing!!! So I pulled over at the gas station....got out the cell, and called my mom....
I could SEE it in her voice....arms crossed, head shaking..."I told you so." With an exasperated sigh I replied, "I know..." She continued, "Now Jenna, what does the Bible say?? What is a virtue???" "Patience Mom... Patience is a virtue."
And that is my lesson for the day. Patience is a virtue. And it is a good thing to practice in EVERY aspect of my life. I mean, if I rush into something...before the storm of it all is over...well, I'm pretty much going to get stuck in all the HAIL!!!
(Ashley, I hope you enjoy the hidden meaning of this one!! ;)
so how about this....
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you
Away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares...
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
I can save you
I can take you
Away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares...
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Monday, August 02, 2004
What a glorious day that will be!!!
"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, not crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."
Revelation 21:4
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affiction, which is but for a moments, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory."
2 Corinthians 4:16-17
I thank my Lord for the gift that was given to me that I may have this promise. I thank my Lord that I have friends that can encourage me, and that I, in return, can encourage them. I am thankful that I can learn from the things that I have to go through, and that my God can make good come from it!! I love how God takes care of me...for example, this youth rally, and my friends being here, came just when I was about to not have to strenght to keep standing...they helped build me back up just by being there!! And that is just ONE example of how God takes care of me!! and that makes me happy!!! :)
Revelation 21:4
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affiction, which is but for a moments, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory."
2 Corinthians 4:16-17
I thank my Lord for the gift that was given to me that I may have this promise. I thank my Lord that I have friends that can encourage me, and that I, in return, can encourage them. I am thankful that I can learn from the things that I have to go through, and that my God can make good come from it!! I love how God takes care of me...for example, this youth rally, and my friends being here, came just when I was about to not have to strenght to keep standing...they helped build me back up just by being there!! And that is just ONE example of how God takes care of me!! and that makes me happy!!! :)
Sunday, August 01, 2004
The Best Weekend of the Entire Summer!!!
This weekend really was the best!!! Ashley got here Thursday night...bless her heart, her 3 1/2 hour drive turned into a 6 1/2 hour drive due to the MISdirections of MapQuest. But she got here safely so that's all that matters! We had so much fun hangin out that night...laughing all night while on the phone with another one of our fun friends!! Surprisingly enough..we didn't get much sleep.
The next morning I had to go to work, but after that, Ashley and I had ourselves some fun at Applebees, the park, Goodwill, and the purse/jewelry warehouse store...tons of fun I tell you!
And then....was the youth rally!!! SOOOOO MUCH FUN!!! The lesson was great that night, and then our boys got there to perform...Cornerstone!! Yay--oh yeah, it was Cornerstone and their manager for the weekend, Miller! haha Anyways....the youth rally was fun that night! Then everyone went to the house for some real fun times! We watched Serendipity, ate some (apparently gross) popcorn and just hung out till...umm...well, let's just say it was late, and that night I got less sleep than the night before!!
The next day was more happy youth rally!!! 2 more awesome lessons brought to us by Lonnie Jones!! Another wonderful Cornerstone performance...Ahh such a good happy fun wonderful youth rally! They are always great, but I think it made it even better having my friends there!! After lunch Ashley and I went to the library to help with the summer reading program party, it was actually really fun, we had been dreading it...but it wasn't bad at all. Then we went to the Family Cookout at the Nesbitt's...that was fun, *hey Rach--we gotta talk about that friend of yours!!! ;)* It was really sad when we left the cookout, cause the boys had to drive home that night...sigh...but we made the best of it by having a crazy fun drive home---OH YEAH--- with one exception...if you really want to know...ask me why I am the biggest idiot in the world, I really should not be allowed to drive... anyways...
Ashley had to leave before church this morning...and I hated seeing her go, but I'll see her in less than 2 weeks!! yay!!! Love her!!! SOOOO much!! One of my best friends right there.
You know...in a way, I am kinda glad that all my friends had to go home before church, because this morning was really emotional. Our youth minister has taken a job in Orlando, and this morning was really hard cause he is right this minute, on his way there...He's been my youth minister since I was in 7th grade....and it was just a really hard morning...I would have been embarressed because I cried all morning. Scott (the youth minister) leads singing too, so when he started that first song this morning...well, that's when the tears started leaking out of my eyes, and then when they had the special thing at the end of the service for him...yeah...I cried a lot...luckily I was prepared and I had brought in some napkins (couldn't find tissues...) I know that with Scott gone, things are going to be a lot different, but it is better for Scott, and God has a plan for us...I'm just going to have to not worry about it and put it in God's hands...just like what I need to do with everything else...I trust Him...and I know that He'll take care of me.
Anyway...I am very excited about getting back to Faulkner Thursday!!!!! What a wonderful way to spend my last weekend at home...with my friends!!! I couldn't have asked for anything better!! yay!!!
The next morning I had to go to work, but after that, Ashley and I had ourselves some fun at Applebees, the park, Goodwill, and the purse/jewelry warehouse store...tons of fun I tell you!
And then....was the youth rally!!! SOOOOO MUCH FUN!!! The lesson was great that night, and then our boys got there to perform...Cornerstone!! Yay--oh yeah, it was Cornerstone and their manager for the weekend, Miller! haha Anyways....the youth rally was fun that night! Then everyone went to the house for some real fun times! We watched Serendipity, ate some (apparently gross) popcorn and just hung out till...umm...well, let's just say it was late, and that night I got less sleep than the night before!!
The next day was more happy youth rally!!! 2 more awesome lessons brought to us by Lonnie Jones!! Another wonderful Cornerstone performance...Ahh such a good happy fun wonderful youth rally! They are always great, but I think it made it even better having my friends there!! After lunch Ashley and I went to the library to help with the summer reading program party, it was actually really fun, we had been dreading it...but it wasn't bad at all. Then we went to the Family Cookout at the Nesbitt's...that was fun, *hey Rach--we gotta talk about that friend of yours!!! ;)* It was really sad when we left the cookout, cause the boys had to drive home that night...sigh...but we made the best of it by having a crazy fun drive home---OH YEAH--- with one exception...if you really want to know...ask me why I am the biggest idiot in the world, I really should not be allowed to drive... anyways...
Ashley had to leave before church this morning...and I hated seeing her go, but I'll see her in less than 2 weeks!! yay!!! Love her!!! SOOOO much!! One of my best friends right there.
You know...in a way, I am kinda glad that all my friends had to go home before church, because this morning was really emotional. Our youth minister has taken a job in Orlando, and this morning was really hard cause he is right this minute, on his way there...He's been my youth minister since I was in 7th grade....and it was just a really hard morning...I would have been embarressed because I cried all morning. Scott (the youth minister) leads singing too, so when he started that first song this morning...well, that's when the tears started leaking out of my eyes, and then when they had the special thing at the end of the service for him...yeah...I cried a lot...luckily I was prepared and I had brought in some napkins (couldn't find tissues...) I know that with Scott gone, things are going to be a lot different, but it is better for Scott, and God has a plan for us...I'm just going to have to not worry about it and put it in God's hands...just like what I need to do with everything else...I trust Him...and I know that He'll take care of me.
Anyway...I am very excited about getting back to Faulkner Thursday!!!!! What a wonderful way to spend my last weekend at home...with my friends!!! I couldn't have asked for anything better!! yay!!!
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
happy day #2...what an accomplishment!!!
WOW!! I mean WOW!!! Things are really looking up!!! I am making it!! 2nd Happy day in a ROW!!! Yay!!!! I knew that if I just hung in there, God would be able to help me out!! He is soooo AWESOME!!! sigh of relief..... and that is all to say....
Monday, July 26, 2004
Happy time
No more sad entry for today-----it's happy time!
I love my Mommy!
I love my Daddy!
I love my sisters!
I love all of my family!!!!!
I love Rach!
I love all of my friends!
(not even gonna start namin names...would be a LONG list!!)
I love Faulkner!
I love Camp Wetoga!
I love life!
I LOVE GOD!!!!!
And the youth rally is this weekend and this is the last week of my jobs and next week I get to see my friends and meet new people and I am blessed beyond imagination!!!! YAY!!!!
AND!!!! Ashley is coming this weekend for the youth rally and I am so excited cause we are going to have fun and Cornerstone will be here so it will almost be like Seneca, but with half the sisters not there...but the 2 of us will be rockin anyway!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love my Mommy!
I love my Daddy!
I love my sisters!
I love all of my family!!!!!
I love Rach!
I love all of my friends!
(not even gonna start namin names...would be a LONG list!!)
I love Faulkner!
I love Camp Wetoga!
I love life!
I LOVE GOD!!!!!
And the youth rally is this weekend and this is the last week of my jobs and next week I get to see my friends and meet new people and I am blessed beyond imagination!!!! YAY!!!!
AND!!!! Ashley is coming this weekend for the youth rally and I am so excited cause we are going to have fun and Cornerstone will be here so it will almost be like Seneca, but with half the sisters not there...but the 2 of us will be rockin anyway!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
I am exhausted....
I am exhausted: physically, from work and all of the stress; spiritually, from fighting to keep myself spiritually alive...from fighting to get up everytime satan finds a way to knock me back down over and over and over again with discouragement; emotionally drained....I just need a big boost and I think getting away and back to school with my friends will help, I mean...I need something!!! Cause I am TIRED of all of this....I want to have my happiness back..I still have my joy, don't get me wrong, but I am just not as happy as I usually am, and i miss it!
I will make it...I will....I am going to be ok, this is just a hard time, I will be fine soon, and I don't doubt that one bit, but it sure is hard right now...pray for me...
I will make it...I will....I am going to be ok, this is just a hard time, I will be fine soon, and I don't doubt that one bit, but it sure is hard right now...pray for me...
Thursday, July 22, 2004
A Breath of Fresh Air...
Well, you all can probably tell, things have been kinda rough for me the past couple of weeks. I've been really discouraged about many different things..confused...frustrated...and clueless as to how to handle these different situations. Anyway, this week, the East Brainerd Youth Group (were I often attend) was at Camp Wetoga for their week of camp...well of course I wanted to go, but of course I had to work...BLAH!! Anyway... I was able to make it down to camp yesterday. I left after work at the library and drove as fast as I could into those Blue Ridge Mountains...I got there, and it was like....sigh.....camp....whata relief!!! It was wonderful! I really needed some camp...now that is not to say that I didn't still have all that stuff on my mind..cause I did, and I still do....but, still...
This morning I went to the Bible class, and we watched this video clip, and then we had time to sit, and think about things...meditate on God...spend time with Him... Our teacher told us to write down what we were thinking...and I think I am going to write it in here so that I can see it often and remember....
here I am, sitting in this mess hall that I have grown to love... so many memories of wonderful, powerful lessons I have heard in here...memories of all the fun I have had in here with so many different people over the years.
these memories are full of joy, encouragement, upliftment, pure fellowship, some hard times, but most of all,
memories---connections
times I have felt the closest to my Lord...
and all of this
This Hope
This Joy
This Peace
This LIFE
is because of Him!
I owe this life to Him!
His sacrifice gives me the opportunity to have that-and the opportunity to go to Heaven- where all of this joy will be multiplied by ETERNITY! and for that--I owe Him my life! ALL of it!
and even in times like now, when things are so hard- He is in control, and I will follow Him!
This morning I went to the Bible class, and we watched this video clip, and then we had time to sit, and think about things...meditate on God...spend time with Him... Our teacher told us to write down what we were thinking...and I think I am going to write it in here so that I can see it often and remember....
here I am, sitting in this mess hall that I have grown to love... so many memories of wonderful, powerful lessons I have heard in here...memories of all the fun I have had in here with so many different people over the years.
these memories are full of joy, encouragement, upliftment, pure fellowship, some hard times, but most of all,
memories---connections
times I have felt the closest to my Lord...
and all of this
This Hope
This Joy
This Peace
This LIFE
is because of Him!
I owe this life to Him!
His sacrifice gives me the opportunity to have that-and the opportunity to go to Heaven- where all of this joy will be multiplied by ETERNITY! and for that--I owe Him my life! ALL of it!
and even in times like now, when things are so hard- He is in control, and I will follow Him!
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Home again...home again....
So I had myself a wonderful time in Montgomery!! I got to spend a lot of time with Jessie, Ashley, and the other Seneca girls (luv em!)...I also got to hang out with several other wonderful friends! I wish I could have seen more people and maybe seen some people more...but it was still WONDEFUL! I can not wait to get back to school! I really can not wait! I think I had forgotten just how much I missed it...it took being there to bring everything back fully...and now I don't think 3 weeks can go by fast enough!!
I know that this is going to be a great year! Hopefully there will be some fun new adventures for Jenna...who knows what all is in store for me this year...*winkwink*
One bad thing though...I got home today and found out that my mom had been in the hospital and my fam didn't tell me till I got home...they didn't want to me to get in a reck trying to get home or something...I wish that they had told me...but anyway...the Dr. thinks she has kidney stones. I feel so bad for my mommy!! I would love it if you all could keep her in your prayers!!
I know that this is going to be a great year! Hopefully there will be some fun new adventures for Jenna...who knows what all is in store for me this year...*winkwink*
One bad thing though...I got home today and found out that my mom had been in the hospital and my fam didn't tell me till I got home...they didn't want to me to get in a reck trying to get home or something...I wish that they had told me...but anyway...the Dr. thinks she has kidney stones. I feel so bad for my mommy!! I would love it if you all could keep her in your prayers!!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Well...here I am...
...in Montgomery..made it in one piece...people liked my haircut!...I now have a roommate...I am so excited because she is soooo awesome and I know this even though I d0n't even know her yet!! It is good to be here...
..the trip was kinda interesting...2 traffic jams...severe weather...me almost dying in that severe weather while stuck in a Cracker Barrel...rescued by Stevo's parent...what a relief!!! AND FINALLY MAKING IT TO MY DESTINATION!!! hahaha All in all...it was a good trip and now I am happily hangin out with my friends! I love it here!! Yay!!!
...anyway...while in Albertville I had the oportunity to meet Michelle's awesome youth group! They are so great! They are going on a mission trip to Michigan and I want to go soooooo bad..but I have to work...blah...but hey- I will be going back to visit and hang out!! For sure!! Such awesome people...
...and now I am going to have to end this lovely blog entry to go to thee movies with my friends!! YAY!!! more later.....out
..the trip was kinda interesting...2 traffic jams...severe weather...me almost dying in that severe weather while stuck in a Cracker Barrel...rescued by Stevo's parent...what a relief!!! AND FINALLY MAKING IT TO MY DESTINATION!!! hahaha All in all...it was a good trip and now I am happily hangin out with my friends! I love it here!! Yay!!!
...anyway...while in Albertville I had the oportunity to meet Michelle's awesome youth group! They are so great! They are going on a mission trip to Michigan and I want to go soooooo bad..but I have to work...blah...but hey- I will be going back to visit and hang out!! For sure!! Such awesome people...
...and now I am going to have to end this lovely blog entry to go to thee movies with my friends!! YAY!!! more later.....out
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Headed to the M-town!!!
well, I get to go up to school this weekend and see everyone!! I am so very excited!!! yay!!! soon I will be going back to school for the year and to be honest--I have mixed feelings now...I am soooo ready to get back and be with all my friends...but I am kinda hesitant to leave home..with all that has been going on here...I am afraid to leave and then come back to a big disaster...that is something that I am going to have to let go of and not try to fix it myself...trust God...well, I guess I will just have to walk by faith and not by sight...
Saturday, July 10, 2004
And now I really just don't know what to say...
...have you ever had so many things come at you all at once...from all directions...all so shocking, so startling, so frustrating, so confusing, and so...annoying....
...and you really just don't know what to think...what to say...
and it's not like they are all related to the same thing... it's like..stuff in every aspect of your life going crazy...
...well, I guess that's where I am right now...stuck in the land of not knowing how to handle this and how to deal with that and what's going to happen here and how you are going to end up there...
...kinda definitely bites...
but things will get better.... 2 Corinthians 4..I just need to read that...remind myself that God is in control, I am holding His hand, and He will lead me through all of this...
...one thing is for sure...I am holding
on to His hand very tightly...
...and you really just don't know what to think...what to say...
and it's not like they are all related to the same thing... it's like..stuff in every aspect of your life going crazy...
...well, I guess that's where I am right now...stuck in the land of not knowing how to handle this and how to deal with that and what's going to happen here and how you are going to end up there...
...kinda definitely bites...
but things will get better.... 2 Corinthians 4..I just need to read that...remind myself that God is in control, I am holding His hand, and He will lead me through all of this...
...one thing is for sure...I am holding
on to His hand very tightly...
Thursday, July 08, 2004
This very well may have been the most emotional day of work ever in my life...
Ya'll...today was rough...don't get me wrong, I had some wonderful, fun, happy sessions today at the studio...but there was one that just broke my heart!! I really cried when the people left...this just humbled me and it really...well, it really did crush my heart for these people...let me tell you about it...
I had a break between some appointments, so I was doing things around the studio that needed to be done...when I heard someone clear there throat...I turned around and there was an elderly lady and her husband standing at the front of the store. I thought, sheesh, you didn't have to be rude... and then I walked over to them. The lady said that she and her husband wanted to get pictures taken, and she asked if I had time to do it for them...well, I had an hour before my next appointment so I could take them...she told me that she had a doctors appt. at 2:15, so we needed to get them done quickly...no problem...I took them to the camera room and began taking their pics...they were so cute!! Yesterday was the lady's 62th birthday so they were getting birthday pics taken...they told me that they usually get their pics taken every 5 years for their anniversary, and this Jan. would be their 45th Anniversay..but they wanted to get them done now because the lady had some health problems...that made me sad..and I wanted to make sure that they had some wonderful pictures! And they did! They were great!!! The people didn't have a coupon...and I felt bad for them, so I gave them a coupon for a GOOD discount!! They picked out sooo many pictures that the total came to over $600...blest their hearts...when I told them the price, I thought the lady was going to have a breakdown...I felt awful, I took her back to the sales table and we started to downsize her order...she told me, she said..."I wish I could get all these..I really do, but hunny, I just can't afford it right now...I'm about to have a cancer operation, and I just can't afford it" I gave her a hug and told her that it was going to be all right...when she left to go to her appointment..she had tears in her eyes...and I did too, as they walked away, I lost it..I know that I don't know these people, but it just hurts my so bad to think that I may have taken their last pictures together...the thought of that man, having to look at those very pictures sometime in the future, with her gone...and the pain that he will feel..because you can tell how much they love each other...and I wish that there was something that I could do for them...but there's not, and right now even I am crying just thinking about it...and I just am praying for them so hard...I just pray that that lady will be ok, and that she will beat the cancer that is hurting her so badly...and that she won't be taken away from her husband yet...
and I know that you might think it is silly that I let myself get so emotional over some people that I don't know...and maybe I am silly, but if you could have seen their faces...just how they...admired one another, if you could have looked into those eyes...they were so full of fear, and disappointment, and grief...but also full of so much love...if you could have seen how much they cared for one another...
and it may be that no one understands me on this one...but I suppose I just needed to write it all down...
I had a break between some appointments, so I was doing things around the studio that needed to be done...when I heard someone clear there throat...I turned around and there was an elderly lady and her husband standing at the front of the store. I thought, sheesh, you didn't have to be rude... and then I walked over to them. The lady said that she and her husband wanted to get pictures taken, and she asked if I had time to do it for them...well, I had an hour before my next appointment so I could take them...she told me that she had a doctors appt. at 2:15, so we needed to get them done quickly...no problem...I took them to the camera room and began taking their pics...they were so cute!! Yesterday was the lady's 62th birthday so they were getting birthday pics taken...they told me that they usually get their pics taken every 5 years for their anniversary, and this Jan. would be their 45th Anniversay..but they wanted to get them done now because the lady had some health problems...that made me sad..and I wanted to make sure that they had some wonderful pictures! And they did! They were great!!! The people didn't have a coupon...and I felt bad for them, so I gave them a coupon for a GOOD discount!! They picked out sooo many pictures that the total came to over $600...blest their hearts...when I told them the price, I thought the lady was going to have a breakdown...I felt awful, I took her back to the sales table and we started to downsize her order...she told me, she said..."I wish I could get all these..I really do, but hunny, I just can't afford it right now...I'm about to have a cancer operation, and I just can't afford it" I gave her a hug and told her that it was going to be all right...when she left to go to her appointment..she had tears in her eyes...and I did too, as they walked away, I lost it..I know that I don't know these people, but it just hurts my so bad to think that I may have taken their last pictures together...the thought of that man, having to look at those very pictures sometime in the future, with her gone...and the pain that he will feel..because you can tell how much they love each other...and I wish that there was something that I could do for them...but there's not, and right now even I am crying just thinking about it...and I just am praying for them so hard...I just pray that that lady will be ok, and that she will beat the cancer that is hurting her so badly...and that she won't be taken away from her husband yet...
and I know that you might think it is silly that I let myself get so emotional over some people that I don't know...and maybe I am silly, but if you could have seen their faces...just how they...admired one another, if you could have looked into those eyes...they were so full of fear, and disappointment, and grief...but also full of so much love...if you could have seen how much they cared for one another...
and it may be that no one understands me on this one...but I suppose I just needed to write it all down...
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Ok.....sooo...now...
I really do like my hair, I just got sad about the good, fun, long hair being gone....everyone likes my haircut...they say I look older..that's good....anyway.....it's not about what I look like...it's about the person I am...(and I am going to keep tellin myself that...)
yeah...it's been one of those days.... goodnight
yeah...it's been one of those days.... goodnight
Ummm....sooooo
Yeah...I, ummm, got my hair cut yesterday...I really liked it!! It looked really cute...but...when I woke up this morning...I really missed my hair...I want it back! I want it to grow fast and I really really really really hope it doesn't look completely horrible the entire time I AM growing it out...It is different...and that will be good for now I suppose...but I really want it to grow back to being...well...me!!!Anyway...this is probably just the "first morning after a hair cut, freak out cause you're like--DID I REALLY DO THAT!??!" kinda thing...oh well, it's just hair, maybe I will still have friends... ;), I'm just joking... Oh well, got to get ready for work...later
Monday, July 05, 2004
Fun in the Sun!!!
Well, today was a big family picnic at the Ocoee River...we had so much fun with the fam!! Me, Rach, and JD laid on some rocks in the middle of the river for a good 2 hours...*AHAHHHH!!!!Kill it!!!* *Get my shoe* *Don't throw it over the cliff!?!!* I saw one of my friends from high school there which was really fun!! Blake was one of my Pre-Cal buddies!! Bless the boy for real!! He helped me out a bunch!! hehe... good times, good times... Oh- and we saw 3 snakes while we were there...kinda crazy... this one kid threw this big rock at one and it knocked it off the rock it was one, and it started swimming towards us!!!! We thought we were bout done for!!! Anyway.....we had us a big day today! :)
Thursday, July 01, 2004
So here's my question....
How does one person really make a difference?
You know, sometimes it gets a little discouraging when you see so many things that need to be fixed, so many people that are hurting and need help, and still there's so much that you (I) need to work on... I suppose the only way to tackle it all is to just do what you can...try to somehow effect everyone that you come in contact with...It doesn't have to be anything huge...really, I guess it can just be with a simple smile, a sincere "hey, how are you doing?" By being a friend...by listening to people, by being selfless...some of these things are easy to do, and others take work...that selfless thing especially! And hopefully others will be encouraged, and maybe they will even start doing that very same thing to everyone they come in contact with...and then the cycle would continue...and thinking about it that way, that one smile could indirectly touch every single person in the world...now that is an encouraging thought!! I like it!! :)
You know, sometimes it gets a little discouraging when you see so many things that need to be fixed, so many people that are hurting and need help, and still there's so much that you (I) need to work on... I suppose the only way to tackle it all is to just do what you can...try to somehow effect everyone that you come in contact with...It doesn't have to be anything huge...really, I guess it can just be with a simple smile, a sincere "hey, how are you doing?" By being a friend...by listening to people, by being selfless...some of these things are easy to do, and others take work...that selfless thing especially! And hopefully others will be encouraged, and maybe they will even start doing that very same thing to everyone they come in contact with...and then the cycle would continue...and thinking about it that way, that one smile could indirectly touch every single person in the world...now that is an encouraging thought!! I like it!! :)
Awakened from my slumber...
ahh...this morning, at the bright and early time of 9:30 (ok, so it's not that early, but for me, who was planning on sleeping till noon, it was a bit early) I got a call on my cell phone that woke me up very abruptly..I didn't realize that my volume was THAT loud...I guess the fact that it was right by my head didn't help much... anyway... It wasn't anyone fun, it was Amy from work---love her...work not so much...--and she needed me to come in for her. Bummer. But hey, it's money...
So there are lots of things going on right now, and I'm good, handling it all well and all, but it still is kinda stressful. And at this point of time, there is no need for me to go into details, just know that there is a lot that needs prayers...so if anyone wants to pray for just all the stuff that is going on...I would appreciate it very much!!
I don't always understand how good can come from some of the stuff that happens, but my understanding is not essential, God has got it all under control, and all I have to do is trust Him, and that I do!!
So there are lots of things going on right now, and I'm good, handling it all well and all, but it still is kinda stressful. And at this point of time, there is no need for me to go into details, just know that there is a lot that needs prayers...so if anyone wants to pray for just all the stuff that is going on...I would appreciate it very much!!
I don't always understand how good can come from some of the stuff that happens, but my understanding is not essential, God has got it all under control, and all I have to do is trust Him, and that I do!!
